actualization

Its 24 of September, the day couldn't be any better, my niece turned 1 our little bundle of joy first step on earth. its my last month at 25, i know very well i am stepping into my own new path. my late twenties, i never thought i would get to the time my apprehension turned into enlightenment, doesn't life crown those who bend to the laws laid down. so we think, my niece will be subjected to terrors of the world like she never experienced, lucky she landed on it at a time when we all know when everything south actually mean- all is going the wrong way.

but i am happy, grumpy but happy no one- i mean nobody can and will take away my new found happiness, i want to exploit my talents, establish new friendships, head out east while facing north, ask about the south contemplating on how it would actually feel to be on the east, quietly sipping on my chilled drink.

I never knew it would come to the time at my late twenties,caught between a rock and a very hard place,i never thought i would have the tools to drill through the rock, or patience to wait for the worse to pass. make the best out of my un-pleasant situation. we know when to move but sometimes its important to listen to those who give us signals without their knowing; so yet again i come to my decision of saying goodbye to my comfort zone. between that rock and hard place i un wittingly placed myself, i can drill right through it, whether facing east or west.........i can do it.

time was my master, i take it right back, i will be what i was determined to be a master of self a slave to life.

I will walk out of my situation now, yes i will all my in inadequacies, i am leaving them right where they found me.

wish me luck.....

Fare well

.After a long time away from my blog today i come back to visit and say good bye to my dear friend Shem Mwabe whom i learnt of his death from a school mate and new found friend.

he was a cool guy quite and reserved always smiling and never lost touch with self i think he was a good friend to many who knew him and he surely will be missed..

we all loose people in our lives through tragic accidents and other ways out of our control. i salute all those who left they are in a better place.

Fare well to the comrade.

my new venture

i have my own business up and running and lord am i excited about the whole issue

started the enterprise in August while on live and was way excited about it, the sales were overwhelming, every one was excited about the shop and the compliments un ending.

i knew everything would be well, i had invested my all in it and took all the risk more than any entrepreneur should and i thank my impulsiveness for that

it has been two months and a week and i have carried on all the ever mentioned barriers of sole proprietorships, from poor sales to bad publicity, broken merchandise to under selling of the products

i am not at any one moment discouraged though i always see myself excelling at my new venture it pains me not to be there to nurture it and see it grow.

how can i claim for credit when i have some one else raising my infant.

i believe it will all come to light that i have a great mind and if i put my thoughts to action i will succeed.

God only knows where i am headed to, but if my foreboding is anything to go with i am

a force to reckon with.

lets all put our thoughts to action and stay positive amidst of the trials and tribulations of life.

it will always be a world created from our thoughts interaction and mostly the people we decide to include in the journey that makes this life worth every cent=.

रेस्पेक्ट

I had a shocking email from an individual who claimed to know what personal life should be about. pointing out my moral values were eroded and did not have a clear understanding on life. talk about someone who disrespects who we are as individuals
we have a right to write down our thoughts and share. the many people who have gone through alot in life not knowing if they are the only ones in that perpetual muddle as it seems.

lets all endeavor to respect other peoples opinion and thoughts just because someones life is not consistent with yours does not mean you have a better life or you are living the life the "right" way.

i respect you who read my blog and hope you respect my thoughts regardless of how personal they may seem.

kind regards

i cant wake up or sleep

i am having issues with my sleeping habits mmmh i cannot initiate myself to a nice session of deep slumber just for eight hours instead i stay in bed doing nothing in particular....i wish i was at-least grabbing tight on someone but no, i am gnashing my teeth due to the unforgiving weather it quite chilly up here dammmmnnnnnnn.
waking up becomes another task, brrrrrinnnnnnggggggggg the fone goes its 5 30 already shieeeeeeeeettttt. but i promise you there aint no point of having that thi ng coz i always snooze and go right back to my cozy position, my hands between ma legs and my brain off to some Caribbean island, ooooh those beautiful with a sole intention of hurting me aaarghhh..briiinggggg there goes the damn alarm again but this time i see the sun arghhh its already 6:30 damn there goes my time to make some coffee and eat. i need to figure out some tactic either on sleeping or waking up, i cannot juggle this two godamn balls i have so much going on in my life already......anyone with a suggestion?
lets see what happens on the first week of April because March mmmmhh this tanker sailed away the minute it initiated....

i cant

i realized i am so fucking bored by my job right now but i really need it i swear i fuckin need it. but this blooging thing suckkkkssssss not all the time coz all i do is follow a couple of guys who blog consistently and laugh at there silly comments on life and realize i got it good, and i should try alittle hard to make it even better
ok i wil sign off from here
halllaaa

that interview

Friday morning i wake up early but not leaving bed, trying hard to push my eyelids oooh no i just can ti cant stand the light of a new day- break, i wake up after 1 hour give and give another, clean up lazily that was after trying to get out of bed, take my honey mix wit some hot water, mmmmh this suckss run out get into a p.s.v get to work just in time to start my favorite day friday. im happy tommorow will be saturday and i will be free as a birdy, time goes so slow when doing nothing. helter skelter tick tock the cleaner and the watch, the cloud seamed like mad men tossing their clothes around. get a life dear i think! read this read that laugh out loud animatedly pick up my phone respond to a client, ask silly question get rude answer, laugh about it and move on with life.
its almost time to leave the office this place i call home away from my comfort zone.
time comes email get sent i recieve it and as for every communication there must be a response
i do obey the basic rules and make a detailed resume sent it out and forgot about that for a short duriation, run out again and get to my colege. get into the lift and the phone rings, you are invited to an interview tomorow morning at ten says a rather un welcoming lady like voice mmmhhhhhh