its all out but not quite..................

moments past slow like the wind but not in motion air, i feel it going growing through my veins nostrils and into my lungs i exhale ummmmpppphhhh. i gasp for more air deeper i inhale my rib cage expands my lungs deflate waiting for a nice supply of fresh crisp oxygen my blood streaming my heart pumping my pulse raising my sweat dripping my body shivers and ooooooh i feel the warmth the touch caress, in an instant im trans located to ecstasy this feeling taking over me greater than i have my mind to control it, its tantalizing yet painful strong the pure but soft essense kissing my nose arousing every bit of my brains,

its beautiful to be is graceful to live its even more profound to love and be loved to
share in the little joys of life what you know and what you dont trying to discover each and self through the pain and the anger the elements of the universe respect love fear, to make an understanding of our being in the haste of time and counsel of years
we make and break shake and strengthen bonds and unions to keep or to dissolve what little things in life we know or don't.

what an awesome opportunity we have regardless of the mixture of weary and stubborn
ideology or personalities we strive to maintain or to compromise time and space friendship and ignorance of religions creed color or ethenicity,

it still is a beautiful world my heart spoken out but my brain staying vigil

lets meet on

that little.............

i come to the point in life where the word loan is quite interesting , cant wait to get a loan or rather apply for one just maybe get it, but what are the odds of a guy whose been working for only 8 months getting a loan considering that creature called a ripple aaarrrgh i am fumbled by the word it self, its hard to save up enough money to buy a tooth brush not literally but you can get the pic? can you?

i am going to cast my luck and see the chances of getting turned down just like what happened after i applied for a credit card ha? that was ridiculous cant even remember i live and work in Kenya Africa, where empowerment of young dynamic individuals is considered just not right. and we ask ourselves why we are not progressing daaaaa...

since i am not one to be turned off i will try out for the loan and regardless what the say regarding my Credit history ha.....i will triumph in my own pathetic situation and just walk away in silence with thoughts rushing through my mind on what other Bank. but shoot the stupid credit history, just like the police if the don't find any thing incriminating the will get something , if it doesn't fit don't acquit, God help us we are all in a rat us those still in our youth and unknown

but not for looonggg

life

My goodness how days fly away without ones noticing, friends turn into enemies and enemies turn into life long enemies, changes don't come around that much no more.

i guess that how life will always be sometimes the highs and the fucking low.
speaking of the lows i have been been dreading moving on as age and statue requires
having to say no to just anything that comes my way to safe guard my reputation as a
a serious career oriented person.

my plan was to stay invisible or if that plan was thwarted i would do something classic camouflage, now you see me now you dont.

why put my life on the fucking line if i could just fit in and have a comfortable life bila stress or even worse drama from people i couldn't give a shit about.

i have worked so hard to achieve what i have got right now and still pursuing more in the spirit of getting to my final destination........................oooh hell i have no final destination here on this earth just enjoying the nature and all its beauty.

life is sweet alyal punks reading this shit. hope life treats me kind and holds me gently, im still a virgin on life till i turn 90 when i start living it.................

m speak of confusion ha?

going away

good bye is not always pleasant, moving away can bring change or fear i feel neither i am
just in transition but cautious of my movement i wouldnt like to tread where angels dare,
keeping in heart the rugged places i have gone through and all i have withstand in time if no one can see that then i can pat my back and say... you did a great job. sometimes satisfaction comes from within.

i believe i have that satisfaction

the up ward trend....

my first week working as a manager was quite energized following the many decisions i had to make regarding the smooth running of the organization. implementing them and coming up with a strategic plan for the moths ahead. as ussual i was apprehensive my thoughts holding me down but i still motivate myself in keeping busy and talking to my parents who are supportive. i really thought they were terrified not for my getting the job. my rational thought on there reaction was.... i really didnt have a thought i did nt give a care i have always been a self starter and this was me in the doing.
maybe i have already ruffled a few feathers but in a birds life few feather have to be shed for new and better feathers to neccesitate a more swift flight. i might be imposing this maybe but as a young manager i need to stand my ground having in mind that i might have my ego crushed and my career thwarted for a long time, which i will not let be i have worked hard enough to achieve this and my long term goal is to reach the highest peak.

i have been contemplating career change but at the rate i am at, i might as well do it the future holds too much for me to deaccelerate. or worse do something stupid i don't suppose i will.as long as i have my blog i will keep my reflection alive no blur but maybe shades of grey life cant always be black and white.

let me stick to the up ward trend sticking to my guns not all can be friends not all can be foes.

and my favourite in the face of bitting change line pessimists will believe it will be worse, optimist believe its going to change for the better and a realist will change it for the better.

alluta continua.

its all mine.

........... i finally landed a job in management excited beyond words i am now earning and in a position to aid my own growth. i take this as a challenge for future greater job opportunities.
my position entails planning organizing and marketing. my interview 2 each with the head and deputy
were moderate. i only had to prove my worth and decision making capability which i deed since i got the job. but the hard part is implementing my ideas and motivate the workers.
major hurdles include language and employees relation to the ceo its more of a family owned business i have to tread safely and watch my moves, be articulate for now i am certain i have won the admiration of few people i am young energetic and smart.
convincing the staff to change there culture which i have clearly noted is paternalistic will be very important. there are advantages and disadvantages as i stated. these people are twice older than i am. few are adequately educated.
there are a few favourites but i am hoping and wishing that i achieve my goal by implementing the most important regulations.
time management topping my agenda and language.

Career Change

its been 4 months since this year started and a few days in, i have few or none offers on jobs and my morale is wearing out, but i have decided to partake something different that is change my career go on to financial advising ask me why i have decided to do this i am frustrated by the inability to find any internship and luck of pleasure from what i had earlier decided to pursue Insurance, i also took the initiative of talking with knowledgeable individuals who have advised me to go ahead and pursue my other option which i believe i will be able to derive happiness and joy,
i truly and sincerely hope that my decision will be one to assist me stand by myself financially and socially.