Its crunch time

Today was that day i woke up feeling like its all going down, literally, everything taking a turn for the worst, fortunately it all went well, i woke up late due to my sleeping disorder-which i may or may not have induced-but i am working on a way to get out of it, I slept at 11 30, correction i got to bed at 11 30 slept some minutes past one Am, forgot to put on my pjays-dnt got none, i usually wear my khakis, yes they are better than my usual boxer short. Its been very cold of late, the weather has moved from bad to frost...i can no longer enjoy the luxury of sleeping lightly, i have to pile up my blankets, you all know what the cold season tags along, Flu, Flu and more Flu. I decide to quit my Job five months ago,now can sleep past 6 Am waking up at 9 or 10 to jump start my business, i am not scared much now, maybe little due to the bills that keep pilling. i have been trying to set up my company and keep it moving, i have reserved one of my prospective names,hoping everything moves as planned i will be the budding C.E.O of yet another company in Africa giving another 1 Billion reasons to smile. My bills have reached an all time high, being one month in rent areas going to two, half paid electricity bills, chronic problem, i need to work on that, for the better part of the month i have been without water, i learned a dear lesson! water is life, water rules everything, But money can cause all sorts of problems with or without. Slowly but steady my side hustle is raising, i have initiated a viral campaign program to make sure we sell the products to as many people, Today i made three sales. i am quite happy, hopefully i can keep up the trend. My company, having its core business in Interior design, Event Planning, Housing renovation has the opportunity to quote for a new project, the company which i introduced myself to has offered me a door of utilizing my marketing skills, i am a born marketer i hope i also have the required Management skills, leadership is not an easy task, people "me in mind" have divergent personalities, some easy to handle others almost impossible. I am hoping for the best, 2012 might be a gloomy year for the Economy, our Inflation levels are high but we are a hopeful country, Politicians might be egotistical, chauvinist, uncultured but we still keep moving, we are driven to survive and that we shall. Good tidings to all as we travel through time.

actualization

Its 24 of September, the day couldn't be any better, my niece turned 1 our little bundle of joy first step on earth. its my last month at 25, i know very well i am stepping into my own new path. my late twenties, i never thought i would get to the time my apprehension turned into enlightenment, doesn't life crown those who bend to the laws laid down. so we think, my niece will be subjected to terrors of the world like she never experienced, lucky she landed on it at a time when we all know when everything south actually mean- all is going the wrong way.

but i am happy, grumpy but happy no one- i mean nobody can and will take away my new found happiness, i want to exploit my talents, establish new friendships, head out east while facing north, ask about the south contemplating on how it would actually feel to be on the east, quietly sipping on my chilled drink.

I never knew it would come to the time at my late twenties,caught between a rock and a very hard place,i never thought i would have the tools to drill through the rock, or patience to wait for the worse to pass. make the best out of my un-pleasant situation. we know when to move but sometimes its important to listen to those who give us signals without their knowing; so yet again i come to my decision of saying goodbye to my comfort zone. between that rock and hard place i un wittingly placed myself, i can drill right through it, whether facing east or west.........i can do it.

time was my master, i take it right back, i will be what i was determined to be a master of self a slave to life.

I will walk out of my situation now, yes i will all my in inadequacies, i am leaving them right where they found me.

wish me luck.....

Fare well

.After a long time away from my blog today i come back to visit and say good bye to my dear friend Shem Mwabe whom i learnt of his death from a school mate and new found friend.

he was a cool guy quite and reserved always smiling and never lost touch with self i think he was a good friend to many who knew him and he surely will be missed..

we all loose people in our lives through tragic accidents and other ways out of our control. i salute all those who left they are in a better place.

Fare well to the comrade.

my new venture

i have my own business up and running and lord am i excited about the whole issue

started the enterprise in August while on live and was way excited about it, the sales were overwhelming, every one was excited about the shop and the compliments un ending.

i knew everything would be well, i had invested my all in it and took all the risk more than any entrepreneur should and i thank my impulsiveness for that

it has been two months and a week and i have carried on all the ever mentioned barriers of sole proprietorships, from poor sales to bad publicity, broken merchandise to under selling of the products

i am not at any one moment discouraged though i always see myself excelling at my new venture it pains me not to be there to nurture it and see it grow.

how can i claim for credit when i have some one else raising my infant.

i believe it will all come to light that i have a great mind and if i put my thoughts to action i will succeed.

God only knows where i am headed to, but if my foreboding is anything to go with i am

a force to reckon with.

lets all put our thoughts to action and stay positive amidst of the trials and tribulations of life.

it will always be a world created from our thoughts interaction and mostly the people we decide to include in the journey that makes this life worth every cent=.

रेस्पेक्ट

I had a shocking email from an individual who claimed to know what personal life should be about. pointing out my moral values were eroded and did not have a clear understanding on life. talk about someone who disrespects who we are as individuals
we have a right to write down our thoughts and share. the many people who have gone through alot in life not knowing if they are the only ones in that perpetual muddle as it seems.

lets all endeavor to respect other peoples opinion and thoughts just because someones life is not consistent with yours does not mean you have a better life or you are living the life the "right" way.

i respect you who read my blog and hope you respect my thoughts regardless of how personal they may seem.

kind regards

i cant wake up or sleep

i am having issues with my sleeping habits mmmh i cannot initiate myself to a nice session of deep slumber just for eight hours instead i stay in bed doing nothing in particular....i wish i was at-least grabbing tight on someone but no, i am gnashing my teeth due to the unforgiving weather it quite chilly up here dammmmnnnnnnn.
waking up becomes another task, brrrrrinnnnnnggggggggg the fone goes its 5 30 already shieeeeeeeeettttt. but i promise you there aint no point of having that thi ng coz i always snooze and go right back to my cozy position, my hands between ma legs and my brain off to some Caribbean island, ooooh those beautiful with a sole intention of hurting me aaarghhh..briiinggggg there goes the damn alarm again but this time i see the sun arghhh its already 6:30 damn there goes my time to make some coffee and eat. i need to figure out some tactic either on sleeping or waking up, i cannot juggle this two godamn balls i have so much going on in my life already......anyone with a suggestion?
lets see what happens on the first week of April because March mmmmhh this tanker sailed away the minute it initiated....

i cant

i realized i am so fucking bored by my job right now but i really need it i swear i fuckin need it. but this blooging thing suckkkkssssss not all the time coz all i do is follow a couple of guys who blog consistently and laugh at there silly comments on life and realize i got it good, and i should try alittle hard to make it even better
ok i wil sign off from here
halllaaa

that interview

Friday morning i wake up early but not leaving bed, trying hard to push my eyelids oooh no i just can ti cant stand the light of a new day- break, i wake up after 1 hour give and give another, clean up lazily that was after trying to get out of bed, take my honey mix wit some hot water, mmmmh this suckss run out get into a p.s.v get to work just in time to start my favorite day friday. im happy tommorow will be saturday and i will be free as a birdy, time goes so slow when doing nothing. helter skelter tick tock the cleaner and the watch, the cloud seamed like mad men tossing their clothes around. get a life dear i think! read this read that laugh out loud animatedly pick up my phone respond to a client, ask silly question get rude answer, laugh about it and move on with life.
its almost time to leave the office this place i call home away from my comfort zone.
time comes email get sent i recieve it and as for every communication there must be a response
i do obey the basic rules and make a detailed resume sent it out and forgot about that for a short duriation, run out again and get to my colege. get into the lift and the phone rings, you are invited to an interview tomorow morning at ten says a rather un welcoming lady like voice mmmhhhhhh

the change

well time flies so fast when you are contemplating of moving and making some serious changes in your life, people disappear slowly from your eyes from your mind and from you life eventually, all this takes time and little effort, people feel unworhty or more worth able to fly over to new heights.

we get worse or better of and prefer to change our circle of friend and thus leading to a vicious cycle yeah it is a cycle from all the circles you go breaking and making trying to get the perfect friends and statue.

im sick and tied of all this cycles and circles they make my bowels turn and leave a bad taste very bad taste.

but we gotta move on life is it we have to deal with it.

its all out but not quite..................

moments past slow like the wind but not in motion air, i feel it going growing through my veins nostrils and into my lungs i exhale ummmmpppphhhh. i gasp for more air deeper i inhale my rib cage expands my lungs deflate waiting for a nice supply of fresh crisp oxygen my blood streaming my heart pumping my pulse raising my sweat dripping my body shivers and ooooooh i feel the warmth the touch caress, in an instant im trans located to ecstasy this feeling taking over me greater than i have my mind to control it, its tantalizing yet painful strong the pure but soft essense kissing my nose arousing every bit of my brains,

its beautiful to be is graceful to live its even more profound to love and be loved to
share in the little joys of life what you know and what you dont trying to discover each and self through the pain and the anger the elements of the universe respect love fear, to make an understanding of our being in the haste of time and counsel of years
we make and break shake and strengthen bonds and unions to keep or to dissolve what little things in life we know or don't.

what an awesome opportunity we have regardless of the mixture of weary and stubborn
ideology or personalities we strive to maintain or to compromise time and space friendship and ignorance of religions creed color or ethenicity,

it still is a beautiful world my heart spoken out but my brain staying vigil

lets meet on

that little.............

i come to the point in life where the word loan is quite interesting , cant wait to get a loan or rather apply for one just maybe get it, but what are the odds of a guy whose been working for only 8 months getting a loan considering that creature called a ripple aaarrrgh i am fumbled by the word it self, its hard to save up enough money to buy a tooth brush not literally but you can get the pic? can you?

i am going to cast my luck and see the chances of getting turned down just like what happened after i applied for a credit card ha? that was ridiculous cant even remember i live and work in Kenya Africa, where empowerment of young dynamic individuals is considered just not right. and we ask ourselves why we are not progressing daaaaa...

since i am not one to be turned off i will try out for the loan and regardless what the say regarding my Credit history ha.....i will triumph in my own pathetic situation and just walk away in silence with thoughts rushing through my mind on what other Bank. but shoot the stupid credit history, just like the police if the don't find any thing incriminating the will get something , if it doesn't fit don't acquit, God help us we are all in a rat us those still in our youth and unknown

but not for looonggg

life

My goodness how days fly away without ones noticing, friends turn into enemies and enemies turn into life long enemies, changes don't come around that much no more.

i guess that how life will always be sometimes the highs and the fucking low.
speaking of the lows i have been been dreading moving on as age and statue requires
having to say no to just anything that comes my way to safe guard my reputation as a
a serious career oriented person.

my plan was to stay invisible or if that plan was thwarted i would do something classic camouflage, now you see me now you dont.

why put my life on the fucking line if i could just fit in and have a comfortable life bila stress or even worse drama from people i couldn't give a shit about.

i have worked so hard to achieve what i have got right now and still pursuing more in the spirit of getting to my final destination........................oooh hell i have no final destination here on this earth just enjoying the nature and all its beauty.

life is sweet alyal punks reading this shit. hope life treats me kind and holds me gently, im still a virgin on life till i turn 90 when i start living it.................

m speak of confusion ha?

going away

good bye is not always pleasant, moving away can bring change or fear i feel neither i am
just in transition but cautious of my movement i wouldnt like to tread where angels dare,
keeping in heart the rugged places i have gone through and all i have withstand in time if no one can see that then i can pat my back and say... you did a great job. sometimes satisfaction comes from within.

i believe i have that satisfaction

the up ward trend....

my first week working as a manager was quite energized following the many decisions i had to make regarding the smooth running of the organization. implementing them and coming up with a strategic plan for the moths ahead. as ussual i was apprehensive my thoughts holding me down but i still motivate myself in keeping busy and talking to my parents who are supportive. i really thought they were terrified not for my getting the job. my rational thought on there reaction was.... i really didnt have a thought i did nt give a care i have always been a self starter and this was me in the doing.
maybe i have already ruffled a few feathers but in a birds life few feather have to be shed for new and better feathers to neccesitate a more swift flight. i might be imposing this maybe but as a young manager i need to stand my ground having in mind that i might have my ego crushed and my career thwarted for a long time, which i will not let be i have worked hard enough to achieve this and my long term goal is to reach the highest peak.

i have been contemplating career change but at the rate i am at, i might as well do it the future holds too much for me to deaccelerate. or worse do something stupid i don't suppose i will.as long as i have my blog i will keep my reflection alive no blur but maybe shades of grey life cant always be black and white.

let me stick to the up ward trend sticking to my guns not all can be friends not all can be foes.

and my favourite in the face of bitting change line pessimists will believe it will be worse, optimist believe its going to change for the better and a realist will change it for the better.

alluta continua.

its all mine.

........... i finally landed a job in management excited beyond words i am now earning and in a position to aid my own growth. i take this as a challenge for future greater job opportunities.
my position entails planning organizing and marketing. my interview 2 each with the head and deputy
were moderate. i only had to prove my worth and decision making capability which i deed since i got the job. but the hard part is implementing my ideas and motivate the workers.
major hurdles include language and employees relation to the ceo its more of a family owned business i have to tread safely and watch my moves, be articulate for now i am certain i have won the admiration of few people i am young energetic and smart.
convincing the staff to change there culture which i have clearly noted is paternalistic will be very important. there are advantages and disadvantages as i stated. these people are twice older than i am. few are adequately educated.
there are a few favourites but i am hoping and wishing that i achieve my goal by implementing the most important regulations.
time management topping my agenda and language.

Career Change

its been 4 months since this year started and a few days in, i have few or none offers on jobs and my morale is wearing out, but i have decided to partake something different that is change my career go on to financial advising ask me why i have decided to do this i am frustrated by the inability to find any internship and luck of pleasure from what i had earlier decided to pursue Insurance, i also took the initiative of talking with knowledgeable individuals who have advised me to go ahead and pursue my other option which i believe i will be able to derive happiness and joy,
i truly and sincerely hope that my decision will be one to assist me stand by myself financially and socially.

INSURANCE PRACTICE

i am in the verge of giving up my search for an internship having applied to a number of insurance companies and having no positive feedback, i have the impression that i might not be ready or i am not giving forth what is needed by potential employers, my line of specialization being property claims handling my level of competency is expected to be a notch higher compared to the other applicants.

i have been contemplating other job opportunities for subsistence in order to achieve a strong ground.

i'm i qualified

so i recently sat my c.i.i exams and got my credit on some of my papers i sincerely gave it my all trying to achieve a goal and become someone or at least significant or a noticeable component of this society and mostly the insurance sector, the inevitable heart sours and disappointments that follow up are taking a toll on me but i will see it through the hard part i guess.............