life

My goodness how days fly away without ones noticing, friends turn into enemies and enemies turn into life long enemies, changes don't come around that much no more.

i guess that how life will always be sometimes the highs and the fucking low.
speaking of the lows i have been been dreading moving on as age and statue requires
having to say no to just anything that comes my way to safe guard my reputation as a
a serious career oriented person.

my plan was to stay invisible or if that plan was thwarted i would do something classic camouflage, now you see me now you dont.

why put my life on the fucking line if i could just fit in and have a comfortable life bila stress or even worse drama from people i couldn't give a shit about.

i have worked so hard to achieve what i have got right now and still pursuing more in the spirit of getting to my final destination........................oooh hell i have no final destination here on this earth just enjoying the nature and all its beauty.

life is sweet alyal punks reading this shit. hope life treats me kind and holds me gently, im still a virgin on life till i turn 90 when i start living it.................

m speak of confusion ha?

going away

good bye is not always pleasant, moving away can bring change or fear i feel neither i am
just in transition but cautious of my movement i wouldnt like to tread where angels dare,
keeping in heart the rugged places i have gone through and all i have withstand in time if no one can see that then i can pat my back and say... you did a great job. sometimes satisfaction comes from within.

i believe i have that satisfaction

the up ward trend....

my first week working as a manager was quite energized following the many decisions i had to make regarding the smooth running of the organization. implementing them and coming up with a strategic plan for the moths ahead. as ussual i was apprehensive my thoughts holding me down but i still motivate myself in keeping busy and talking to my parents who are supportive. i really thought they were terrified not for my getting the job. my rational thought on there reaction was.... i really didnt have a thought i did nt give a care i have always been a self starter and this was me in the doing.
maybe i have already ruffled a few feathers but in a birds life few feather have to be shed for new and better feathers to neccesitate a more swift flight. i might be imposing this maybe but as a young manager i need to stand my ground having in mind that i might have my ego crushed and my career thwarted for a long time, which i will not let be i have worked hard enough to achieve this and my long term goal is to reach the highest peak.

i have been contemplating career change but at the rate i am at, i might as well do it the future holds too much for me to deaccelerate. or worse do something stupid i don't suppose i will.as long as i have my blog i will keep my reflection alive no blur but maybe shades of grey life cant always be black and white.

let me stick to the up ward trend sticking to my guns not all can be friends not all can be foes.

and my favourite in the face of bitting change line pessimists will believe it will be worse, optimist believe its going to change for the better and a realist will change it for the better.

alluta continua.

its all mine.

........... i finally landed a job in management excited beyond words i am now earning and in a position to aid my own growth. i take this as a challenge for future greater job opportunities.
my position entails planning organizing and marketing. my interview 2 each with the head and deputy
were moderate. i only had to prove my worth and decision making capability which i deed since i got the job. but the hard part is implementing my ideas and motivate the workers.
major hurdles include language and employees relation to the ceo its more of a family owned business i have to tread safely and watch my moves, be articulate for now i am certain i have won the admiration of few people i am young energetic and smart.
convincing the staff to change there culture which i have clearly noted is paternalistic will be very important. there are advantages and disadvantages as i stated. these people are twice older than i am. few are adequately educated.
there are a few favourites but i am hoping and wishing that i achieve my goal by implementing the most important regulations.
time management topping my agenda and language.

Career Change

its been 4 months since this year started and a few days in, i have few or none offers on jobs and my morale is wearing out, but i have decided to partake something different that is change my career go on to financial advising ask me why i have decided to do this i am frustrated by the inability to find any internship and luck of pleasure from what i had earlier decided to pursue Insurance, i also took the initiative of talking with knowledgeable individuals who have advised me to go ahead and pursue my other option which i believe i will be able to derive happiness and joy,
i truly and sincerely hope that my decision will be one to assist me stand by myself financially and socially.

INSURANCE PRACTICE

i am in the verge of giving up my search for an internship having applied to a number of insurance companies and having no positive feedback, i have the impression that i might not be ready or i am not giving forth what is needed by potential employers, my line of specialization being property claims handling my level of competency is expected to be a notch higher compared to the other applicants.

i have been contemplating other job opportunities for subsistence in order to achieve a strong ground.

i'm i qualified

so i recently sat my c.i.i exams and got my credit on some of my papers i sincerely gave it my all trying to achieve a goal and become someone or at least significant or a noticeable component of this society and mostly the insurance sector, the inevitable heart sours and disappointments that follow up are taking a toll on me but i will see it through the hard part i guess.............